It’s finally over!
Here’s what we got each other for Valentines day.
It’s finally over!
Here’s what we got each other for Valentines day.
Valentines day has always been a bittersweet day for me.
My mom was always my valentines date. She would surprise us at school with lunch, flowers or a teddy bear and or food.
BUT then came Ruben
Ruben was my first real boyfriend (now husband) and our first Valentines was a movie date. After that my cousin had his birthday party. We always celebrated his birthday over Valentines day and my only rule… I couldn’t bring Ruben. So after the movie I dropped Ruben off and went to my cousins birthday.
He looked at me drunk and in shock. Where is Ruben?
I said…. you said I couldn’t bring him… so I didn’t.
He laughed, hugged me and said he was kidding… It was too late now… Ruben was home. So we partied on.
He never got to meet him, we often would talk about Ruben and he would give me advise and I have a very vivid memory – a few months prior we were at a picnic. He wanted to walk me to the restroom. As we walked we started talking about love. I remember telling him… “What ever, I know you guys are all about hitting it and quit-ing it.” He stared me in the eyes and said, not when your in love. We had a nice walk as he told me about this girl he loved and started lecturing me about sex. Something made me feel like he knew. He knew I had slept with Ruben even though I never told him. But how could he know? He was like my bigger brother so I was not about to tell him what I have done.
3 Months later…. He died.
and Valentines would never be the same.
I told Ruben.
We will never be those people who go all out on Valentines day.
You are off the hook!
Years passed and Valentines day got easier although we still didn’t make a big deal about it.
2 months ago I found out I was pregnant.
It was a scary yet exciting feeling that I had to keep a secret.
for 12 long weeks!
Valentines will be my reveal date! I’ll post some cute pic or something creative!!!
then I lost it.
today has been a hard one
last night I couldn’t sleep.
I tossed and turned,
pissed that I couldn’t sleep. But why!?
Then I remembered consciously what tomorrow would have been
and that was it, goodbye sleep!
I broke down.
you know… those ugly tears, moan and cry.
(A Kim kardasion cry)
I am a mess
It didn’t end at 2am. They’ve lingered all day.
Thank God i’m locked up in an office by myself.
Ruben and I planned on staying in.
Pizza, wine and a movie?
My Mom e-mails me and is expecting us to do Valentines at her house.
I can not deny the invite
She said. Pizza, Nuggets, Wine and Netflix
Only a crazy person would turn that down!
any distraction is a great distraction.
We just left my moms.
Pizza, nuggets and Netflix as promised.
Part of me wishes it was just Ruben and I spending the day together but I’m glad I was able to laugh and play fight with my family. It was great to distract myself.
Almost forgot to say I got gifts 🙂
A perfume from my parents and a necklace from my hubby ☺️
Ending the day on a good note.
Well, bittersweet I guess.
Unlike most holidays I feel like you either celebrate Valentines… or don’t. Tons of people have different opinions about this holiday and I LOVE THAT! So what’s your answer? Yes or No?
To be quite honest Ruben and I have never made a big deal about Valentines day. From the beginning I told him I didn’t want to celebrate the hallmark holiday. As we got older I celebrate it more each year! To be honest… Ruben isn’t a great gift-er… He always waits until last minute and since it’s last minute he ends up buying me expensive gifts.
I am more of someone who thinks about it for months. I actually bought his Valentines eve gift months ago! I planned on giving it to him on Valentines day but I could not hold it in!!!! Watch video below to see what I gave him.
YES!!! I couldn’t hold it in and wait because on the way home they kept mentioning it on the radio so I knew I couldn’t hold it in anymore and would end up ruining the surprise because secretly it’s something I want to go to too!
He was so surprised and said…. OMG! YOUR GIFT IS GONNA SUCK COMPARED TO THIS! I was like Woah Woah WOAH! This made me feel horrible. You see I was raised to never give something expecting something in return. DO NOT EVEN EXPECT A THANK YOU.
I had a talk with him and told him with everything that we have been though I am just happy to be with him. I don’t want or need chocolate. All I want to do on Valentines day is to eat pizza, have some wine and watch Grey’s Anatomy because nothing would make me happier than that. I do not want to get dressed up and go out and about as expected, I just want to eat, drink and cuddle because that’s what we always do. That’s us.
Ruben and I have been together since 2008. Luckily we’ve been able to grow together so this page is going to be ALL about us as a couple. I do monthly challenges so here’s some scoop on how we stay best friends.
He is such a great husband I started a new thing in June where I surprise him with something. Once a week with small things and once a month with something big.
June: Bought tickets to the Ranger gave Vs Boston.
July: I finally changed my last name to Ortiz…
August:His big surprise this month was… I bought us tickets to Boston!!!
September: I surprised him with Game tickets and our Airbnb in Boston where we got to explore the city!
October: our anniversary month
November: We went for a washer… convinced him I didn’t need it so he could get his TV. Technically it’s a gift to himself BUT it was the best thing he got this month… All I did was throw him a birthday party for his birthday and buy him stuff for his PS2.
Surprised him with a date to the museum and watched the new StarWars in IMAX.
I was pregnant… then I lost it 😦
We were able to see our baby with a ultrasound and see a heart beat
It all started off with spotting and ended up being something more like a period… on crack!
The second I left the ER I started getting really hard cramps that felt like what I imagine contractions feel like… 2 days later at my appointment we found out we lost it.
This baby wasn’t planned but I already loved it. From the second I found out I was pregnant I tried not to get too excited because I knew the facts about first pregnancys and the possibility of having a miscarriage. My whole life, even as a young girl I had dreams that this would happen. I thought it made me feel like I could handle it better but I am realizing… that’s not the case and it is still hard.
As much as I tried not to get too attached I was hoping the 1st trimester would fly because I just wanted to shout that I was pregnant. I vlogged almost everything and hope to share it soon once this whole pregnancy is over..
What I mean by that is…. I am still miscarrying. Turns out that it’s not a one day process for everyone, especially because I chose to go through my miscarriage naturally. This was a decision I thought would be best…. turns out every time I go to the restroom… it’s just a constant reminder that I lost the baby and am no longer pregnant or going to be a Mom.
Here’s a video I was going to share with you guys announcing to Ruben I was pregnant.
It was a FAIL
And this is how I told my friends on Snap Chat what was happening
I still plan on sharing my whole pregnancy vlog BECAUSE this is something so many woman go through but not everyone likes to share. I feel like this could really help someone. Once I snapped about it I had about 11 girls that follow me tell me that this was something they went through too and some have never told anyone.
Everyone deals with everything differently and that is okay.
This is just how I’m deal with mine.
I got a new planner! 20 bucks at Target.
EVERYTHING ELSE I GOT WAS FROM THE DOLLAR BINS AT TARGET.
Glitter washi tape!
Had to get a work calendar
More washi tape!
gonna get some use from these!
I am extremely excited about year! I have a lot of things planned and I can’t wait to bring you guys along.
My 2016 Motto:
SAY YES AND FIGURE THE REST OUT LATER
So, where did this take me? What did I conquer?
Stayed home most of January because it was COLD!!
Our honeymoon on a cruise.
I started a blog!
We went on a mini/ last minute road trip to San Antonio with Nat and Johnny.
Hello Austin for Tanias B-day.
and then… NEW YORK!
and even San Marcos
Hello New York!
Even though this was my birthday month this month was SHIT! But we did go to Arkansas!
Welcome to our Family Kitty! YES! We got a dog!!
Tried getting fit.
Mini trip to New Braunfels
Austin, Painting, Parties and all.
Tried blogmas … fail. I got a new car though!