Tanias Bday

Instead of giving my best friend a gift for her B-day I decided to take her somewhere she hasn’t been. Deep Ellum. Deep Ellum is in Dallas and only an hour away so after work I picked her up and off to Deep Ellum we went.

 

1st stop 42 Murals (Not sure if you could tell but…. I love elephants)img_2872img_2871img_2875img_2864

Our 2nd stop was Serious Pizza – Of course I forgot to take a picture….

(So just imagine a HUGE yummy slice of pizza)

After dinner is desert! So we stopped and grabbed rolled Ice-cream at Chills 360

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We walked, talked and ate our ice-cream and then ran into this CUTE store called Jade & Clover. I FELL IN LOVE<3

PINK COUCH = GOALS!!!

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Afterwards Tania was supposed to meet up with a friend for drinks so we cut it short and headed back to Fort Worth.

So happy I spent part of her day with her.

24 looks good on you Tania ❤

Happy Birthday!

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Music is my escape.

The artist of the month for me so far is Maclemore. His music and deep and beautiful.He has some serious songs and some fun (dance crazy, sing in the shower songs) I love artist who can make you cry and then the make you want to dance on the next song…Here are 2 of my current favs

My cute attempt at the Military Diet.

 

Day1

Expectations 

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Reality

7am  8oz of hot water, 8oz of apple juice, 1 dash of cayenne pepper, 1 dash of cinnamon, 1tbs of apple cider vinegar (ACV)

8:30 Toasted wheat bread with peanut butter.

10am Half of a grapefruit.

11am 8oz hot water, 8oz of pineapple juice, 1tbs of ACV

30 min walk and jog on couch to 5k

1pm Tuna on toast with a cup of coffee (I added mayo and relish even though it is supposed to be plain)

2:45pm 8oz of hot water, 8oz of pineapple juice, 1tbs of ACV

3:30pm 1/2 a banana (because I am not wastefull -I bought the mini bananas)

5pm 45 min weight day

6:30pm I cheated and had 2 hot pockets 😂

8pm 8oz or water, lemon juice, 1tbs or honey, cayenne pepper, cinnamon.

 9:30 pmGreen tea with mint

-I felt like I was eating all day. Never hungry until after my workout where I couldn’t wait to cook dinner and I have in 😭

Day 2 

Expectations

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Reality

 

-I decided to stick with it even though I had cheated.

8:30am 8oz of water, 1tbs ACV, 1tbs of lemon juice, 1tbs of honey, dash of cayanne pepper, 2 dashes of cinnamon
9am boiled egg

11am wheat toast

12pm banana

45 min walk 

2pm pretzels and hummus

(yes I cheated again… I’m just not good at following diets)

2:30 8oz water, ACV, pineapple juice

3:30 dark chocolate (yuuup I did it again)

5pm Half a banana

I don’t have everything I need for tonight’s dinner so of course… once again…. FAIL

6pm 2 slices of pizza

7:30 1/2 a hot dog and 1/2 a bag of hot fries (Baseball game food)

10pm 34 oz of water

 

Day 3   

Expectations

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Reality

 

I should just give up because I mean obviously I have no will power… but here we go.

8am 8oz of water, 1dash of lemon juice 1 dash of honey, 1 dash of cinnamon, 1 dash of cayenne pepper

10am 5 crackers and 1 slice of cheese

11:30 8 oz of water, 1 freshly squeezed grapefruit, 1tbs of ACV

12pm 30 min walk & jog

1pm Toast with a boiled egg

3pm POPCORN!

This is about to look really bad…..

7:30pm …. Bacon burger with sweet potato fries

10pm 8oz of hot water, 1tbs of lemon juice, 1 tbs of honey, 1tbs of ACV, 1 dash of cinnamon and 1 dash of cayenne pepper.

 

THIS IS EXTREMELY HARD BECAUSE I HAVE NO CONTROL

AND WHEN I TELL MY SELF I CAN’T DO SOMETHING

I HAVE TO!! I DON’T KNOW WHY!!!

I GOT IT!

I have been wanting to try to be a waitress BUT I have no experience what so ever… So I kept debating on even applying because who wants someone with no experience.

AND GUESS WHAT!

I got the JOB!!!!

3/6/2017

I will be using this money to pay off my credit cards

and

to fix our house!!!

I AM SO EXCITED!!!

California in February.

Our well needed get-a-way… Hello Cali!!

As soon as we got there we got our rental car and

Day 1

1st stop. Venice Beach

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… Muscle Beach

We needed food so FATBURGER it is.

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Then of course Ice cream macaroon sandwich from Milk.

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Next… The museum

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You can’t do Cali without hollywood!

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DAY 2

Breakfast at Coco’s Family Restaurant

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Because blocks away was DisneyLand.

 

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Day 3

Our last day was ruined with rain!

So back to the beach…

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Went back to re-enact this because I couldn’t do it in jeans.

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Got a tattoo at some random tattoo shop

Ate at Small World Books

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Went to LACMA

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After this it was time to go home with out new reads.

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 Bittersweet

Valentines day has always been a bittersweet day for me.

 My mom was always my valentines date. She would surprise us at school with lunch, flowers or a teddy bear and or food.

BUT then came Ruben

Ruben was my first real boyfriend (now husband) and our first Valentines was a movie date. After that my cousin had his birthday party. We always celebrated his birthday over Valentines day and my only rule… I couldn’t bring Ruben. So after the movie I dropped Ruben off and went to my cousins birthday.

He looked at me drunk and in shock. Where is Ruben?

I said…. you said I couldn’t bring him… so I didn’t.

He laughed, hugged me and said he was kidding… It was too late now… Ruben was home. So we partied on.

He never got to meet him, we often would talk about Ruben and he would give me advise and I have a very vivid memory –  a few months prior we were at a picnic. He wanted to walk me to the restroom. As we walked we started talking about love. I remember telling him… “What ever, I know you guys are all about hitting it and quit-ing it.” He stared me in the eyes and said, not when your in love. We had a nice walk as he told me about this girl he loved and started lecturing me about sex. Something made me feel like he knew. He knew I had slept with Ruben even though I never told him. But how could he know? He was like my bigger brother so I was not about to tell him what I have done.

3 Months later…. He died.

and Valentines would never be the same.

I told Ruben.

We will never be those people who go all out on Valentines day.

You are off the hook!

Years passed and Valentines day got easier although we still didn’t make a big deal about it.

2 months ago I found out I was pregnant.

It was a scary yet exciting feeling that I had to keep a secret.

for 12 long weeks!

Valentines will be my reveal date! I’ll post some cute pic or something creative!!!

then I lost it.

today has been a hard one

last night I couldn’t sleep.

I tossed and turned,

pissed that I couldn’t sleep. But why!?

Then I remembered consciously what tomorrow would have been

and that was it, goodbye sleep!

 I broke down.

you know… those ugly tears, moan and cry.

(A Kim kardasion cry)

I am a mess

It didn’t end at 2am. They’ve lingered all day.

Thank God i’m locked up in an office by myself.

Ruben and I planned on staying in.

Pizza, wine and a movie?

Sounds perfect!

BUT THEN

My Mom e-mails me and is expecting us to do Valentines at her house.

I can not deny the invite

She said. Pizza, Nuggets, Wine and Netflix

FOR FREE

Only a crazy person would turn that down!

PLUS

any distraction is a great distraction.

We just left my moms.

Pizza, nuggets and Netflix as promised.

Part of me wishes it was just Ruben and I spending the day together but I’m glad I was able to laugh and play fight with my family. It was great to distract myself.

Almost forgot to say I got gifts 🙂

A perfume from my parents and a necklace from my hubby ☺️

Ending the day on a good note.

 Well, bittersweet I guess.